Thursday, December 27, 2018

2018 is ending.........





I am sure there are a few of you that can agree to that statement.

I also realize that there is nothing we can do about it. What is done is done. No amount of wishing can change it.

So, why cry or pout about it? Let's leave the problems in the past but keep the lessons.

If I wronged you, It wasn't intentional. I was just wrapped up in my own stuff, I am sorry.

If you wronged me, lesson learned. I am over it.

If we don't talk any longer, I do wish you well. I have let it go.

I am certain 2019 will bring its fair share of problems, but I will not let it bring me down, I will let it shape me to be a better me.

Yeah, that last sentence was a bit much, even for me. Lol

I did learn. I am in a constant state of learning. We all are. So how about this instead?

We are human, we will continue to make mistakes, and we will learn from them. We may even be able to look back on the years problems and say, "I am different and realize what is worth keeping and what to let go of."

But 2019, I am tired of learning..........


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~



Tuesday, December 4, 2018

Hey there Mr. Grinch........





The Holiday's do not always bring out the warm 'n fuzzy feelings of Peace, Love, and Hope for everyone.

No, they can bring out the, Stink, Stank, and Stunk, making us a Mr. Grinch during the Holiday's.

Holiday's are times filled with family, friends, happiness, etc....

So, what happens when we do not have that happy family life? Our friends have families of their own to spend time with during the holidays. What if, we have been so broken during the year, we can't find the joy of the holiday's? What if, we are so stressed out by life, that we have become Mr. Grinch?

We all know what happened to the Grinch. He faced a cold cruel life and allowed it shrink his love towards others. So much so, that he wanted everyone to be as miserable as he was feeling.

As soon as he was shown Kindness, his feelings of cruelty simply faded away.

A simple act of kindness can change a person's life in the most amazing ways.

The next time you come across a, Mr. Grinch, show kindness instead. Reach out and make time for those in ways that you do not normally do.

We all make time for what we want when we want, this is no different.


Think about it.


Holiday's are not just about us and who we know in our world, it is about others.

Or is it so important to you that you are right, first, and get that perfect gift,

that you have become,

Mr. Grinch?




Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


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Wednesday, November 28, 2018

That is enough....


You can't always save everyone.

The hardest thing is to realize that you cannot do anymore than you already have.

Sometimes, we are just the person they needed in their moment of need.

We have to accept that and move on.

We can only give what we have to give of ourselves. Once it starts to drain us, we must let go, know we did everything we could, and stop.

We don't stop caring, we just stop trying.

Life is filled with moments of meeting people who helped us become better than we were before knowing them.

We may not always be a part of them being better and that is OKAY.

It is always better to give all that we have to someone, than to look back and wish we had tried harder.

Be at peace with knowing,


that it was enough.


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~

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Wednesday, November 7, 2018

Do you even know??





Gossip. Back Stabbing. Lies. Rumors.

It happens. There is not a damn thing you can do about it.

You can't stop it. You can't change it.

Let the haters, hate.

You may not even know anything about it until, you hear something accidentally or a friend tells you about it.

But when a friend tells you about it, did they defend you or chime right in?

Do you even know?

Some people enjoy misery and misery loves company.

Our friends will speak of us in our absence, it is human nature.

What they say is what matters, not what the haters have to say.



Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


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Friday, October 26, 2018

Trust. The. Wait.




While we work on changing ourselves, we have to wait until the change is complete before becoming who we want to become.

When we wait for someone to make a decision about being in our life, we have to wait for them.

When we want something that we can't have immediately, we have to wait until we can have it.

When we are waiting for news, that will change our lives, we have to wait until we hear it.

We find our voice or we learn to quiet our sound.

Everyone always says, you are learning, trust the wait.

Waiting sucks. Period. Regardless,what it is we are waiting for, it sucks. Good or bad.


The mind needs to be distracted. The hurt needs to be healed. The excitement needs to be quieted. The practice needs to be practiced.

Sometimes, we can learn things about those who we are waiting on and ourselves.

How you act while you wait. How they treat you while you wait.

How you receive the news. How the news is delivered.

Who we want to turn to while waiting. Who is there for us while we wait.

During the wait we grow stronger.

We learn who is truly there for us.

We gain perspective.

We learn to be quiet.

We learn to scream.

We learn to heal.

We learn how to do all those things,


 we never thought we could.


Trust. The. Wait.



Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


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Friday, October 12, 2018

Why or Why Not?


Do you ever wonder why?

Why do you live?

Why do you love?

Why do you want?

Why do you keep secrets?

Why do you hide in plain sight?

Why do you hurt?

Why do you need an answer?



Why not just love?

Why not just bare it all?

Why not feel the pain?

Why not just let it go?

Why not be free?

Why not just accept?

Why not be happy?



Too many Why's and not enough,

Why Not?

The way you answer, your why,

will allow you to grow or,

stop you altogether.

So, what's it going to be for you?

Why?

Or

Why Not?


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~

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Wednesday, October 3, 2018

I LOVE CHOCOLATE......



This was my lunch today.

Yes, I said, lunch. No salad or water. Just plain old chocolate, coffee, and more chocolate.

Let me tell you something, it was delicious!!

I was out n about, running errands in the downtown part of the city, stopped at this chill spot and indulged myself.

I remembered something today. That in a health conscious society, we often guilt ourselves into making the "healthy" choice.

I will always be somewhat unhealthy.

I will always push to be the strongest and healthiest version I can be but that looks different on me, than on anyone else.

That sometimes I do get caught up in how I look.

I know that my physical appearance doesn't matter to anyone who truly loves me.

The only person who I have to answer to, is me.

If I want a slice of chocolate cake and a milk shake for lunch I will and with no guilt at all.

And you should too.



Until next time,
~It is what it is~


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Tuesday, September 25, 2018

I Gave Up.....






I gave more than I wanted with the sole purpose of being kind.

Kindness became my weakness.

My weakness became my stupidity.

My stupidity allowed me to become broken.

My brokenness allowed me to become stubborn.

My stubbornness was a coverup for my pain.

My pain justifies me becoming angry.

In my anger, I have built an enormous thick wall around myself.

This wall protects me from everyone.

Everyone stays away.

So, I just gave up.


Every person has a story for acting the way that they do.

If you decide not to spend the time breaking down the wall, can you blame them for having the wall in the first place?


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


http://www.facebook.com/Jackiesview






Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Did you do everything you could??

I love my kids, wholeheartedly.

I go without many times, so that they can have.

I don't think I am an exception, we all do without for our kids.

They are such a wonderful experience until they get on my last nerve.

Yes, I said it. I feel it. I know.

I had an unfortunate series of events happen today. What should have been an hours drive turned into a 3hr drive.

Why? Because my adult child was driving, my vehicle, and did not listen to me.

He was so sure of himself to be bothered with my directions. We bickered and then I put the seat back and took a nap.

Yes, I did. In that moment, I realized I could of been the dolly lama and he still wouldn't listen.

So, I reclined and closed my eyes. He got us into this and he will get us out.

And he did.

I learned three things today:

1) The apple really doesn't fall far from the tree.
2) I do not need to speak to teach a lesson.
3) I was just like him at that age and still can be.

It is easy to want to take over when things do not go our way.

It was something that I needed to be reminded of.

Regardless, if it's our kids or something else, when we truly let it go and see what happens, it all works out as it should, if we:

Give it our all.

Check our own behavior and perspective.

Realize, that we can do nothing else.

Then, just let it go and let it be.

It always works out how it should.


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


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Tuesday, September 11, 2018

I am just living upside down....




In a world that judges beauty and light,

I am filled with Shadows and Darkness.

Joy, happiness, peace, and love, are words that I will never use.

Sadness, emptiness, darkness, and hollow, are the words that have power over me.

Racing thoughts of, what ifs, why me, and when will my mind stop, consume me.

I lost the biggest piece of my soul the last time I truly loved someone.

Now, my soul just aches.

It is the way that, I know I am alive.

~I am just living, upside down.~


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~




http://www.facebook.com/Jackiesview


Tuesday, September 4, 2018

Tell me......





Hunter: Well, you hold the line.

Prey: When every one of them is giving up or giving in, tell me.

Hunter: Just another product of today.

Prey: Took an oath by the blood of my hand, won't break it.

Hunter: Nothing ever comes without a consequence or cost, tell me.

Prey: Let me see the light within the dark trees' shadow.

Hunter: What's Happenin?

Prey: A bit of the truth, the truth.

Hunter: Deep inside me, I'm fading to black, I'm fading.

Prey: You gotta be so cold.

Hunter: Yeah, you're a natural.

Prey: Rather be the hunter than the prey.

Hunter: To make it in this world.

Prey: Living your life cutthroat.

Hunter: You gotta be so cold.

Prey: I can taste it, the end is upon us, I swear.

Hunter: looking through the glass, find the wrong within the past knowin'.

Prey: That's the price you pay.

Hunter: Gonna Make It?

Prey: I'm gonna make it.

Prey: This house of mine stands strong.

Hunter: Yeah, you're a natural.

Tell me who are you in this story?


  • The Hunter or The Prey?




Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


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Wednesday, August 29, 2018

Keep moving forward....



The ACT. Have you really forgiven a person? I mean totally forgot what they have done to you? Or, do you still remember the pain and actions?

To truly forgive means to let it go. To forget the actions that caused the pain.

So much easier said than done. 

Start within yourself.

Acknowledging your action is the first step.

Understanding is the next.

Asking to be forgiven with a sincere heart.

Receiving forgiveness or not.

Now, let it go. Move on.

It won't be the same or it will be better.

Strength, can come from our own vulnerability. 

Waiting for someone to ask you for forgiveness?

You may be waiting a long time.

Acceptance of the situation. Really look clearly at the facts. Take out the emotions.

Realize that you may not be as important as you thought to that person or your role in their life.

There is forgiveness in allowing yourself to let it go and walk away.

Bottom line here is this,

You can't force anything. Timing, has no meaning if either are not ready nor willing.

Do not hold onto past actions. 


Keep moving forward.

How you treat others, is a mirror of your character, not theirs.

Always.



Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~















Monday, August 20, 2018

Of course I have snacks.....



2 teenagers left for school today. Both had asked if I would be home and then hurriedly stated that they didn't need a ride or anything, they just wanted to know. I took the mandatory pictures and they said, "Bye!" No teary goodbyes, just Bye!

I am not sure what I expected but I guess I did expect something.

People discuss the empty nest phase. They still live with me but I kinda felt like that today.

My oldest son took me out to lunch. It was a good visit with him but I still felt blah all day.

The problem with this picture is, they are only showing the parents perspective and not the child's.

They are not showing them running out of the car or house with the excitement of being free from us. The excitement of being free to hang with their friends and make their own choices.

Nope. 

Not one sole has told me how I would feel in these moments when I discover the fact that this is what happens when you raise your kids to be independent functioning members of society.

I am grateful that my oldest still wants to have lunch with me. That he still discusses his life and asks my opinion on things. I love the adult relationship that we now have and I know I will try to foster the same in the others. In my defense, when he was a teen, I still had 3 more kids to get through.

But for now, I find myself looking at the clock in anticipation for the teens to come bursting through the door, not wanting to discuss their day but rather, if I had made them a snack cause they will be starving or if they can go over so n so's house before dinner.

Of course I have snacks waiting, what else was I going to do today?




Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~




Wednesday, August 8, 2018

Way To Be...............









Check in time.....

So, this new you, how does it feel? Feel like your circle just got a lot smaller?

Relationships can suck. The fake ones always hurt the most because we don't see them coming.

You do not have to tolerate them any longer. No. You. Don't.

That part of you is so over. You deserve people who genuinely care about you in your circle.

First off, you have come along way. Give yourself a break, you deserve it. Changing who you are isn't easy.

You have decided who you want to be. Now that you are here, what to do with those relationships and how to make new ones.....

You have to be able to take and deal with the truths of who you were and are. Those actions need to have an answer. Apologize for your actions and to those who you hurt. You have to be able to see the harm that you caused others. It is a lesson and a perspective you need in order to truly move forward.

You have made the decision to own it. Now so do. Actively own it. Atone for what you did.

Decide who is being real with you. You will know. They are the ones that will want to hear your story and the whys. Even if they think they know the answers, they will still want to hear your story from you. They will offer their version and take responsibility for their part also. Offer forgiveness and ask for it in return. Then it will feel like, just another chapter in the relationship and it continues like old times but it is a new chapter. (Understand? Comfortable with that person but on new ground)

The others will just listen and be like ok. They will continue to center the relationship according to their needs, regardless of how you feel. Act like what you have gone through was no biggie. No voice of concern or seeking forgiveness for their part either.

You will not be alone. You will have one or a few friends who genuinely care for your well being.

You are making a new circle and that takes time to build. Challenge yourself to step outside the box and try new things, places, attend new events, (alone if you have to) and discover this new you.

You are strong enough. Yes, it might be lonely at first.

Remember you want and deserve this. Now, let go of the past you, past mistakes, and truly forgive others and yourself.

Let. It. Out.

and

Let. It. Go.


Will it hurt? Certainly so. Will it be worth it? Totally.



It is the only Way To Be...……..



Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~




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*I do not own the rights to this video or song*




Tuesday, July 31, 2018

Random Acts of Kindness....


Yes, this is my fridge. I opened the fridge this morning and saw the coffee syrup hanging off the edge, of the shelf, just a bit. One of my kids no doubt.

This silly little thing gave me pause. How often do we do something and never give it any more thought?

No regard to our careless act. We mean no harm. We just didn't give any thought to our actions.

Today I will do my best to give thought in all of my actions.

Maybe, just maybe, if we all did this, then today's society will only know kindness.


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~




Saturday, July 28, 2018

Separating what I've done........





Check-in time again......Your new path, in dealing with, your living illusions free version of life?


"Living with these shadows, Separating what I've done."


The past, is just that, The Past. Take the bad as lessons learned. Things you would never do again lessons. It will always be there, Always. You cannot run from it or even forget about it. Let that shit shape you into who you do not want to ever be again. Unless...there are parts that you want to keep.


"Too many people with their hands on. None of which I gave a shit about anyway."

The Good things from the past. It wasn't all bad. You can look back now. See the people in your life who are real (KEEP THOSE PEEPS) and the fake ones (DROP IMMEDIATELY! YES, NOW).

"Stripping Down and Bracing for a Change."

Keep the parts about you that are real and like. No point in being sarcastic, if you do like it. Quiet voice? There are times to NOT speak up and times when you ABSOLUTELY need to. Compassion is good, just draw the line when it turns into them taking more than what you are getting in return. Do not let any relationship, be one that only drains you. Yes, there will be times when you give more than you get BUT it should only be "times". There will also be times you take more than you give. Balance of who you are, who they are, and what you both do to enhance each other. Continually Growing.


"Shedding all my skin to start again."

Remember that. Change is hard. There will be times of, 10 feet forward and 20 feet back moments. Go easy on yourself. You cannot forgive others if you do not FORGIVE YOURSELF first.

"Someday I'll begin to live my life."

You are getting there. Patience, drive, and the memory of what was, will carry you to be who you truly desire to be. Don't give up. Ever...…..

"At Least I'm Breathing"

And you are...……


Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


http://www.facebook.com/Jackiesview


*I do not own the rights to this video or song lyrics*






Wednesday, July 25, 2018

At Least I know I'm not alone......








It comes and goes in waves
It always runs back but it's never quite the same
Well I think there's something wrong with me
Got nothing to believe, can't you see it on my face.


I was going for the title, got hit by your tidal wave, uh
Can't stay in the shallows, please tell me I won't wash away

When it pulls me under, will you make me stronger
Will you be my breath through the deep, deep water
Take me farther, give me one day longer
Will you be my breath through the deep, deep water


(Deep water)
(Deep water)

Ain't even scratched the surface
Thinking I deserve the dream but I don't deserve the hurting

I want the flame without the burning

But I can't find my purpose when I don't know what my worth is

I was going for the title, got hit by your tidal wave, uh
Can't stay in the shallows, please tell me I won't wash away


When it pulls me under, will you make me stronger
Will you be my breath through the deep, deep water
Take me farther, give me one day longer
Will you be my breath through the deep, deep water
(Deep water)
(Deep water)

When I'm sinking like a stone
At least I know I'm not alone
When I'm sinking like a stone
At least I know I'm not alone

When it pulls me under, will you make me stronger
Will you be my breath through the deep, deep water
Take me farther, give me one day longer
Will you be my breath through the deep, deep water

(Deep water)
(Deep water)

When I'm sinking like a stone
At least I know I'm not alone

It comes and goes in waves
It always runs back but it's never quite the same 





Life's road is not always a smooth one. Rather it can be filled with twists, turns, hills, road blocks, and detours. This may seem unfair. Life can be unexplainable at times.

Sometimes, even the road washes away, completely.

Difficult times will define you. Allow the experience to direct you.

In order to truly understand who we are, sometimes we have to experience being in deep waters.

You are not alone.

Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~


http://www.facebook.com/Jackiesview








*I do not own the rights to this video or song lyrics*



Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Hey, don't I know you???



Do you agree with this statement?

Do you think that we are predestined to meet certain people throughout our lives?

Ever have someone come into your life at a time when you are going through turmoil? You have no idea how you will manage to make it and this person has given you the ability to survive it and move on.

What about when things are good? They show up and the next thing you realize is you have grown as a person or your life is so much fuller.

Those odd moments when a complete stranger says something that has a profound affect on you?

Maybe even those friends that can offer a view of life from a different perspective?

It is easy to walk through this life being closed off to those not in your immediate circle. Only trusting in the select few. Only sharing your story to those that you deem worthy.

Imagine how much you are missing out by not accepting the fact that maybe the person who keeps popping up in your life, out of nowhere or even a friend you think has all the answers, just may actually have the piece to your past, present, or future.

And sometimes it is exactly what we need, when we need it. Even if we don't know it, yet.

What if you are that someone to somebody???



Until next time,
~It is what it is~



http://www.facebook.com/Jackiesview


Tuesday, July 17, 2018

But you're not special........








"If you take it down a notch and you let me explain"




You have decided to live in the reality of the life that you have created. You are accepting the environment that you are in and hopefully ridding yourself of the illusions that no longer serve you.
You are working on you, making goals and crushing them. Except that you found out,

 "you're not special"

That there will be no "15 minutes" of fame for you. That there is so much you want to accomplish and you want it all now. You feel you deserve it after all that you have been through.


"I'm not trying to bring you down
I'm not trying to sound so ineffectual"


We all, have fought in our own wars. We all, have had hard times. We all, have been hurt so badly. You see, you are not the only one who has had it bad, or even the worst of times.  The last time I checked, Life can suck, just as much as it can be perfect. Why do YOU think that makes you any different from her, him, them, or even me? Wanna compare scars?  Why?





"You see life's too short to run it like a race
So it's never gonna matter if you win first place"





Instead of believing that you deserve fame(for whateva reasons)why not just focus on making your life better? Take each moment for what it is. Do the best with what you have been dealt. Stop self medicating. Face it, deal with it, and move on. Turn to people you know that will give you, an ear to listen, a shoulder to lean on, a hug for comfort, and a kick in the ass when needed. 




"Hurry up before you go and get old
Hurry up before your blood runs cold
None of us were ever meant to stay
We're all gonna find out one day"




The sooner you make the best of your situation, the sooner you will realize,


"That on this earth we are all the same"


What are you waiting for?






Until Next Time,
~It Is What It Is~








*I do not own the rights to this song or video