Did I just retire??

Yes, I. Did. But I am not 65 or 62 or 67!!! Mind blown.

I have been out of work, for a couple of months, due to a medical issue. 12 weeks to be accurate. The 10th week came and I knew I wasn't going back. 

I made the phone call to work. I gave my 2 week notice. I will be retiring instead of coming back to work.

July 11, 2009--March 15, 2026. 5 months shy of 17 years with the same company. Not at an age where I can retire according to the work force.

During the time I was healing, I realized that I no longer had the passion for my career. A career that I had loved. I enjoyed being a Bakery Manager until I didn't. I no longer want to do this every day. 

I felt God moving me into a new direction. I am giving up a huge monetary pay. I will go on my husbands health insurance until he retires in 2 years! But God told me I had to leave my job in order to heal my body. He was SO right!! 

I went to doctors, had continued elevated blood work and positive scans. I had scans and more blood work. Possible biopsy was the next step for me. Then it happened, after 8 weeks my blood work came back impressively lower. Scan results came back within normal ranges. Doctor was baffled. Claiming that I must of been on some kind of medication that caused the elevation of blood work and positive scans. I knew the truth though, it wasn't any medication because I was not on anything any different than I had been on. I take vitamins, pro-biotics, and digestive enzymes.You know, stuff older people take!!

I will go and have more blood work next week and then again in 3 months to make sure my numbers are  staying in the normal range. I know they will.

They will, because I no longer have the stress of work. I spend time with my grandchildren, reading books, hanging out with my sister, joined a women's group at my church and work on projects that I have been putting off because I never I had the time when working.

I am not sure what the future holds or if I will work part time somewhere or not down the road. I do know that I am not waiting to live this part of my life because I have 6 more years to officially retire at 65 or 8yrs to be 67, in order to collect my owed social security and benefits.

I do know that had I continued on the path that I was on, I would have lost out on many things. I would not be enjoying the joys of a toddler or a newborn baby. The mornings sitting out on my deck during the springtime but I digress.

The most important thing is what God has in-store for me. He has allowed this to happen for me now. Right now. I have been doing what I wanted to do not what God wanted me to do.

So, come along with me on this journey, as I renew my blog or maybe one day turn it into a vlog. Who knows? 

God certainly does, for sure!

Until Next Time,

-It is what it is-

Watering flowers at night...

It's been a wicked busy month for me.  Work has its challenges, home life has been totally one thing after another, and it's all doable, just chaotic. 

Typical me,  9:30pm this evening, I was watering my garden, had to use my phones flashlight, and I noticed that my marigolds are huge! Like, that's my rose bush behind it, huge. 

It's been a while since I really got a good look at them. It got me thinking about what else have I not been paying attention to? What else is growing without me noticing? What else am I taking for granted?

The thing about this life of ours is, it goes by so damn quick.  

Tonight is just a reminder, for me, to slow down and pay attention to what I haven't been noticing lately.

If I don't, then life will just continue on..

(That friend I meant to call.

That thing I never filled out.

That book I bought but never read.

That.....)

With or without me.

Until Next Time,

~It is what it is~

Note To Self:

 

It is said that, Life is free will.

It is said that, Life is what you make out of it.

It is said that, Life is driven by Fate.

It is said that, Life is what you put out and then that returns to you.

There are many more beliefs out there, but you get the picture, right?

I say, that life is all of the above. 

What you believe works for you.

But, what if you do not know what to believe in or even who?

What if the very thing you thought, was the right thing to believe in or do, turns out to be the one thing stressing you out to the max?

What then?

That may be way to dramatic for you.

Sometimes distance gives us a better perspective.

We may find out that we can hear our inner voice again.

Remove the stress, even for just a little while, and see what happens.

Isn't it time to put yourself first?

Until Next Time,

~It is what it is~

Are you O.K. with you???

I am riding home, with my sister, daughter and her friend, from the beach.

We all had a great time but...

A jelleyfish swam past my leg and I mean against it.  Not once, but twice. I got a rash, swelling, and all.  Pain like !@#$% but I didn't let it stop me from getting back in the water.

We had lunch at one of those undercover patio places that they have at the beach. My legs got attack by some black flies that bite. And bite me, they did.

Of course, during all this happening to me, during this 100* sunny day at the beach, I forgot to reapply the sunscreen. Yep, I sure did not reapply the sunscreen.

I do not have a car charger for my phone. Yep, my phone died. We had to stop and buy one. I've had my phone for a year and a half. Never needed it til today.

Currently, my sister is driving. I hear the girls in the back seat laughing. They have already asked when we can go back to the beach.

The day was definitely filled with obstacles for me, but I did not let it ruin our impromptu trip to the beach.

I have accepted that my life can be filled with obstacles and plenty of reasons why I should give up sometimes.

Today, I was reminded, painfully, of this simple fact;

I am and will always be a hot mess and I am wickedly O.K. with that.

Are you O.K. with who you are and forever will be???



Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~



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The Choice Is Yours........

~Same Old Shit~

Go to work. Come home. 

Bills. Not enough time in a day. Life Stresses.

Sleep. Repeat.

~I Am What I Am~

I hate people. They hate me.

I am Happy being Miserable.

Numb to what's going on around me.

~I Can't Change~

 I complain when things don't go my way.
I want things to go back to the way they were.
I live in the past.
I like there.

~I Got No Shame~

I will disappoint you at some point.
I will focus on me, Not you.
I am Me, not you.

Strike a nerve did I? Know someone like this?

I don't believe you get what you give.  Life doesn't always work out that way.

The choices you make determine where you end up in life.

Don't like your outcome? Make a different choice.

Forgive. Apologize. Move on.

Believe you can't change, than you won't.

Life keep dealing you the same hand? It. Is. You.

The Choice has always been up to you.

Stay the course or Change it.

Totally up to you.

Stop blaming life.

Own it.

Until Next Time,
~It Is What It Is~

The Soul still knows...........................

🖤🖤🖤

Deep connection.

Soul's knowing.

The bond.

The completion.

The breaking inside.

A piece missing, forever.

Darkness consumes the soul.

Life resumes.

but the soul still knows.

🖤🖤🖤

 Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~

I missed it....😔

I am fortunate enough to be working in a grocery store during this time of uncertainty. I do appreciate being able to work and I have been working long ass days.

I needed food, like everyone else, and decided to grab a few things before heading home for the night.

I grabbed grape flavored Crystal Light for the kids. I didn't read the label. Just reached for it, threw it in the cart and moved on to the next item.

It wasn't until today, when my son was looking for something to drink, that he discovered the words, "with Caffeine" on the label. My son was like, "Whoa, when did you start buying this?"

I was surprised. I didn't pay attention. I was tired. I have bought this product before. Why would I think it would change?

Trust. I trusted that the product wouldn't change. I didn't notice when it did but it did. I get it, my fault for not reading the package. I was blah blah.

It got me thinking.....

How many times have I been mislead by a slight unnoticeable change? How often have I been distracted by life, that I missed something? Something that I wouldn't like?

Hmmmm.....

What a perfect way to manipulate someone. What a perfect way to try to control the outcome of something.

Spring 2009, Swine Flu created, a sickness that pigs get. Later renamed, H1N1.
100 Million Americans infected. 75,000 died from it. 936,000 hospitalized.
CDC estimates. Google it, I did.

Did we close cities, states or countries during that outbreak? Did we mandate a quarantine? Did companies close doors?


Answer to that is, NO.


Something bigger is going on here. It seems impossible to think otherwise when you research past illnesses and facts.

So, why is this one bringing on such a pandemic?


What are we missing here?



Until Next Time,
~It is what it is~